Its been months since my last entry, so much good and bad has happened. An old flame rekindled, surviving business and gvmt witch hunts that almost put me in jail, stopping training and recently starting again, fighting through my eternal battle of controlling addictive social habits that I'm finally conquering... Yet none of these important … Continue reading Heart’s shattered, where’s the super glue.
I had to walk away. I was spiralling, again... I really don't have any faith we will get back together. It aches inside but I need to prepare myself for that fact. All it took was getting back in the gym after 3 weeks to have a moment of clarity. Sweat out the toxins and … Continue reading Is risking it for Love, worth it?
4 days of ridiculous extravagance. I knew the family was wealthy, but nothing prepared me for what my boy had in store for us. From amazing dinners (truffle shaved mac n cheese and tiramisu were super highlights) to beautiful events, each ceremony was breath taking. Money really does buy you the best, but then again … Continue reading In Cannes for a wedding, But…
It's 2am. If I went to bed right now it would be an early night. I'm not doing anything important. Drowning thoughts with the tv on, surfing the net and social media, realising I don't really care for any of it. Thoughts of tomorrow are fleeting, I'm looking for a reason to wake up earlier … Continue reading Suppressing Demons; walking parallel to the right path.
Where do I begin? Should I even? The topic of healthy living and working out and clean eating has been exhausted. But I wish I read more about the actual struggle between that and those like me who know or are known by practically everyone when you go out. Party like a rockstar indeed. Socialite? … Continue reading A clash of Lifestyles; Nocturnal Social vs Zen Healthy & Jiu Jutsu.
Almost two years since being cheated on and the divorce. Hence no hesitation in enjoying a disconnected lust with many beautiful women, no remorse. The satisfaction and continual instant gratification now slowly becomes an empty hollow, filled with rising undealt sorrow and lonliness. It all of a sudden became meaningless. Time heals all as the soul … Continue reading Healing scars with Intimacy
So as I share and catalogue my travels and eventually get around to deeper and or meaningful thoughts and encounters, there's just so much happening in the present that I want to put out there. Blogging is therapeutic. Doing so anonymously even more.. Van City girl (she knows me well post) is coming back to … Continue reading Love, Dating, Trust. Not necessarily in that order.
My first post. There is a want, rather a need to explain the origin story of who and what I am today. But did I have the balls for such introspect? One that truly allows you to make any real sense out if all? I want to free myself of these mental and emotional chains. … Continue reading Opening up. Voicing deep scars.